I feel as though this topic has graced us with its presence many time before on this blog, but that's okay..!
1. Fear number one is death.
I have grown and learned so much about this fear in the past few months though! God has been teaching me so much! I fear the death of those close to me, the ones I love most. I fear the way I will die, not so much the act of actually dying. Although, I do fear dying "early" and not doing the things I want to the most, like having children. But, like I said God has been teaching me so much about this fear. Because of Him death has lost its sting! Because of Him I don't need to fear death, because what awaits me on the other side is so much better then the life I have here! And as far as losing the ones I love, for those who know Christ I know where there going! I can know without a doubt that they are in a better place and that they are basking in the Glory of their Savior, and there is not other place I would rather them to be!
I haven't defeated this fear yet-but God is faithful! Because of him I can daily conquer!
2. Fear number two is rejection.
I realize all these fears are pretty deep. I don't know if i'm really scared of menial things, or maybe i'm just in a deep thinking mood right now.
I'm scared of being rejected. Not accepted for who I am, and not having people like me. I know this fear started at such a young age. Little girls can be so mean. I can be intimidated very easily by other people, and I know that my fear of rejection stops me more often than not from being my self and really letting people see the real me. It also stops me from getting to know other people. I realize that this is a fear that doesn't really show itself very often. I forget that that it's something I struggle with, it kind of hides in the shadows so to speak. The fear of not being good enough, in relationships with friends, relationships with boyfriends, and the reality of what it feels like to be let go. But God never rejects me. No I'm not good enough for him, but he still chooses to love me and forgive me. When I dwell on that- I am blessed.
3.Fear number three is self confidence.
I don't know if that really classifies as a fear, but none the less it's something I struggle with. In a world of ideals, it's hard to measure up. This fear is also something i've grown a lot in and learned so much about! My husband has been a fantastic help in this regard. Not only assuring me that I am beautiful, but also upholding me in prayer, and reminding me often that my thinking is wrong and not helpful.This is also a fear that doesn't show up very often, and I can be struggling with it for a long time before i realize what's wrong. I know i'm not the only one who struggles with this, but sometimes it feels like I am.
Once again though, God is faithful and continues to show me where my self worth should only come from who I am in him.
And that's what i'm scared of.
